april. #issue 2. life update
i’m alive!🙂
Dear reader,
I hope you don’t mind me sending this during a week day.
I’ve missed talking to you.
Everything has happened and is still happening so fast. Is this what adulthood’s like?
I wish there was a trigger warning of some sort and maybe if you didn’t want to continue you just die. I don’t mean to be so … but that’s how I feel it should be.
“Adulthood shouldn’t be enforced on everyone” - Abigail
For the past 3 months, I’ve been gathering myself and I’ve realized there’s only so much I can gather without getting lost with the speed of life, you know? So it’s time for me do more of the things I actually love even while life still moves.
A lot has happened in such little time. I’ve been to hell (NYSC Camp, Kubwa specifically) and I’m on my way back 🫠. I got very little sleep, made new friends, walked under the very hot sun and gained some weight lol!
I got really sick after camp and when I recovered it was like I was pushed into a boxing ring with life and I’m fighting back as hard as I can. I don’ want to lose but when will it ever end?
“You won’t survive if you’re not intentional about surviving.”- My friend
There’s been a major shift though, since camp, I knew it was going to happen.
Life in Abuja hasn’t been so bad. I adjusted faster than I imagined although I still do not know my way around fully and I get scared of being robbed anytime I’m in a public vehicle. I still think this place is for me, there’s this ease on most days especially on my way home from work.
It feels like I’ve stepped into a new era for myself and I can’t help but be excited for what the future holds. The experiences, people I’d meet, places I’d go to, food to eat, clothes to wear, there’s just so much to look forward to and I can’t miss out on any of that.
I think that’s what keeps me going through this phase.
I have so much to share with you but with time, they will come up. I’m being more intentional with the things and people I love this year so I hope to write more.
Talk to you soon.
xx
I think the shock of adulthood is realizing that you have to get things done ALWAYS. There’s hardly ever any break, times of peace and tranquil are short lived and there’s no pause button. Responsibilities just won’t stop piling. However, if you’re surrounded by wise people and have the boldness and courage to live a good life, you realize that you have to make time to do things that don’t just server you in utilitarian way, but things you genuinely love doing that simply make you happy. I’m glad you figured that out. Good luck!